Last night, as usual I can’t sleep so I decided to dream again, and played God. I played with some words, thus the title.. i think i’ll make up a poem for it. Nah.. i can’t make up my mind yet. But if I do come up with one, then i’ll post it here. =)
Yesterday I watched Twelve Monkeys starring Bruce Willis and Brad Pitt. Jeffrey Goines (played by Brad Pitt) was so funny! Brad Pitt was great in acting as a lunatic/ mentally divergent whatever that means! haha =) I’m really interested with Time Travel always. Like for Donnie Darko for example, and Somewhere in Time. When you mess with Time, surely something will go wrong. But anyway, it’s an endless cycle unless you get to solve something.
My sister once shared to me a recurring dream she always have. That she was a vampire slayer! “Monica the Vampire Slayer” what a laugh! Anyway she said that she always had dreams about vampires. Always, always, always about vampires. So she said that maybe in her past life, she was a vampire slayer! Could be true.. I actually believe my name is Heaven in my past life. I know i know. I really know it!!! I was Heaven in my past life because I always dream of it too.
Watched Goal 1&2 too yesterday. It was a very cool movie, very inspiring and entertaining. 
So I realized that if you’re really good at something, maybe exceptional skills, not just you know how, and you enjoy it and you really want it, then maybe it’s really for you. Like Santiago Munez, he was exceptional, and he really loved football. So so.. maybe writing is not for me because I’m really not good at it, i just know how.. but anyway, it’s still related to my dream so i could still apply it. What is my dream anyway? *puff*
Filed under: Writing
for it is the day I first started to kill a dream. “First” because I don’t know how many opportunities i’ll let slip by later on but I’d also like to say “and last” so that it would be the last time i’d let an opportunity pass me by. I’m a quitter, although “being” in the dream hasn’t even started yet. I haven’t been given a duty yet! A topic to cover! Not good…
Today, I try to rebuild that dream, something less complicated perhaps? Perhaps I’m not up to the Varsitarian’s expectations, well I think so. I decide for my life. So I decided to quit. Should i give a happy or sad smiley for this???
Let me think of a creative topic to write. For now, i’m actually thinking of writing something about an experience last April 2007 (i’m supposed to write specific details but decided not to because someone may get the idea) or what I did today. Either… i have to do it quick to see results! Gimme one week! =)
i shouldn’t regret about it now because it passed. I promised pa naman to myself and to the Lord that when presented with the opportunities, i’ll grab it. i grabbed it yes, hang on to it for a couple of months, when i was sure i was not going to fall that was when i decided to let go…
