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i’ve been busy with school. and to think it was only our first week! well anyway, we had a lot of catching up, with friends and academics since we started a week later than most courses on our university. i’m going crazy over invertebrates and chemistry! Really, i still can’t get my mind to focus on invertebrates! i started reading my chemistry textbook, and it seems my mind’s going to flash out to people “OVERLOAD OVERLOAD” because of too much information. Like right now i’m pretty much overwhelmed with the texts i have to read. i have to read chapters 1-4 of my invertebrate book and also chapters 1-4 of my chemistry book!!!!!!!!! huhuhuhuhuh plus, i’m going to search for the microscopic images of some specimens: kingdom protozoa and porifera for our zoology laboratory! *overload overload!*
well, that’s the appetizer sorry for disappointing you.
but for the main course, i like my header.. two images from my high school, two images from my first year university life. And also, since i’ve been writing about the obvious things.. i just had to ask myself this question now, “what else has been happening?” I’m currently stuck with Jostein Gaarder’s Sophie’s World. I think i belong in the Baroque Period. And i love Descartes and Spinoza.. I think, in my life i have also been thinking about some philosophical questions.. That’s probably why I get depressed usually or say (before, when I was 13-14 yrs old) that i’m quite different from some people because i think of some “deep” things.. i question life and so on.. now that i’m older and more mature (although i choose to be a kid still…) i know how to handle my thoughts and emotions. Perhaps the reason why i wasn’t able to finish Sophie’s World in my first year high school was because i wasn’t ready yet, or it still wasn’t the time. God has His ways and time.. So now, i’m in the half part of the book, specifically in the Locke chapter. =)
God is in nature. =)
Speaking of nature, good thing the storm stopped today. Classes were suspended today because of the storm yesterday. And yet, we’re having a good weather now. At least in my place. I think my university’s cleaning the grounds now… haha! Actually this first week, i experience my first major flood in school. Student were totally stranded inside the university grounds! Although some were still brave enough to ride tricycles or jeeps just to get home… i’m a brave person! Well it was absolutely a good thing i was with my friend and almost neighbor. hehehehe.. The flood wasn’t a hassle at all. But nevertheless my blockmates and i were taking things in a funny way. =)
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why i get depressed so easily when my life’s pretty much bursting with academic stuff.
here’s the link: 3 Tips for How to Live to 100 i got from Yahoo!. Anyway, you know how i always keep on the lookout for anything healthy and good. =) THat’s for you.
I think life really is fulfilling when you do the things you enjoy the most. Like for my case, i long to write or think or dream or do anything that is creative. and yeah although i think i’ll be attending med school, SOMEDAY, my family, and friends said that i should make it (the creative thingy) a part-time.. thing. because i wouldn’t really gain anything “material”(=money) from it aside from the fulfillment. you know how it goes… so why don’t we all follow what it says eh?
1. Get creative at work. meaning, the acting writing dancing or maybe just reading a novel, perhaps a fiction because usually non-fictions are serious stuff left out for the more serious grown-ups. yeah, that’s why they die early don’t u think so? haha. read a fiction or a children’s book… actually a friend told me once that i get so serious about life because i read too many serious books (some fictions). yeah i know there are fiction books which are either heavy or light. so for lighter fiction books, read children’s books. like Mandy by Julia Andrews Edwards or Chronicles of Narnia by C.S. Lewis. If you want some great enlightenment, read Paulo Coelho’s books, they never fail to enlighten my mind and being. But anyway, writing this paragraph i’ve realized i left out some points about fiction particularly.. well i will dwell on that topic some other day because books are totally not the focus of this number 1 no? hehehe.
2. (Finally!) Make sure to cover the basics. what do they mean by that? well, it says that we should do what we should’ve been doing for years now.. Exercising, and in this case, not to try out: smoking.. if u are a smoker, then u should stop if u want to live to a hundred. and also for those who like to drink alcohol.. think u should do that monthly if u’r a heavy drinker every week. i know friends which are like that. so i’m quite concerned about them…
3. do something fun. yeah.. they say it lowers the stress hormone, cortisol. yeah i’ve studied cortisol when we were in in… i forgot haha! anyway, this number 3 goes with number 1. we should always have fun to stay younger! haha. okay i’m boring now.
ANYWAY, that’s my take on the 3 tips they provided for us humans… alright, i’m getting nowhere because it seems that i’m rushing. GOODBYE! until next time! *kiss
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i’m going to read The Media: At the Crossroads between Self-Promotion and Service made by the Pope. Anyway, after reading an editorial about this issue in the Varsitarian i began to wonder and take notice of what i put in this blog. anyway.. i don’t know much yet.
but i’ve already written an issue (just like this) before.. on one of my entries.. that i don’t want to write any more of my boring life and instead write something substantial and informative for the public.
that’s why… last night, i’m thinking of a project again, along with the poetry thingy.. one project until i graduate.. to celebrate the 400th year of my university.. and also an online project.. by the time i get my hands on something OR summer 2009 again. because i’m planning on getting a part-time job. heheheheheheh.. see i’m planning again.. but for this AY i’m taking it easy.. i’ll focus on my studies first.
or a big big OR will be keeping my eyes and ears open for interesting things and blog about it and i don’t have to wait for summer again =)
MABUHAY!
P.S. Oh yeah, i read and finished Chronicles of Narnia Prince Caspian again as a preparation for the movie which is already showing!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
time to exercise again, i think. we had our enrolment a while ago.. it was such a breeze.. but i don’t know why i’m thistired. anyway, for the first time in my history as a college student, i rode a jeepney straight from LRT to my house alone. usually i only ride jeepneys when i’m with someone.. it was a fun and exciting experience for me. no one harassed and no thieves this time 
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whoa, it’s enrolment tomorrow! and i’m still attending UST. i have a lot of interests which are, or rather MY interests in life are actually different from what i’m taking. and so, my family and friends say that i should take those interests as hobbies instead. gah.
last academic year, first semester specifically, i was like crazy/confused. i wanted to shift to journalism, multimedia, creative writing, cooking, interior design… etc.. haha! really now, i got depressed because i wasn’t enjoying my course OR my life at that moment. and so second semester came, i thought i’d transfer but then i got no choice, and so by December i planned on joining organizations to “uplift” my spirits.. hence, the varsitarian. Fortunately i passed, but unfortunately I backed out. So i have to make plans again right?
Yea well, for the summer I didn’t have any activity at all except helping out my mother and sister on our business. I didn’t know what step to take on next. Which one.. what was possible now?? (Yes.. i’m crazy.. the questions i ask myself… 
) Anyway, one night I wrote down on to my journal that probably by second year i’ll take it easy and focus on my academics first.. and then do something by summer 2009. probably work part-time at some environmental center.. and etc etc…
ANYWAY TO ANSWER THE TITLE (sorry i forgot the focus of this entry)
I wouldn’t join any organizations in UST because Manila is far from where I stay. I don’t ever plan on staying in dormitories because I just don’t want to. and so, if i don’t have any organizations for this AY or probably for the rest of my college life (except for Biology Society).. i’m dead. that’s why to keep me on an even keel, i trust my journal and brain and hand of course. I’d continue to write and probably start a poem project.. one i’ve been dying to try since my first podcast from Poetry Off The Shelf (see entry below).
So trust your interests to keep you calm whenever school’s shit.
i’m still surfing the net for interesting articles to read 
. I’m quite tired because it’s Sunday today. Sunday is my cleaning day, well actually for the morning only. I’m assigned to sweep and mop 
this particular place of our dear dear home. Anyway i’m done before lunch… always always done before lunch. But as you know, i wake up at 10 now and i don’t eat breakfast. So lunch is more like a brunch for me.
Since the day I discovered free podcasts from iTunes, i subscribed to Poetry Off The Shelf, a podcast of PoetryFoundation. I’m really quite happy with this discovery because I don’t usually read poems. I don’t like poems at all because I can’t write it! haha 
But anyway, for me, there’s a huge difference between listening to a poem being read aloud, and reading the poem. Okay let me think of something, it’s quite lonely when I read poems, but when i listen to it, i don’t get lonely. And probably because there’s a host and the reader in the podcast, and i listen to their interpretations of some lines and in conclusion, it really is entertaining. 
Now i’m checking out their website and it’s really cool.
Once when i was interviewed by a panel on which literary form i usually write, i told them i usually write essays. And they said that i was the first one who actually answered that because most of the people they interviewed considered themselves as poets. Although now i’m beginning to appreciate poems and would like to be able to understand and eventually write it.
I will be making it as a project again then. Wish me luck.
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it’s been a long long time since i blogged here again.. anyway, been writing from time to time in my multiply. I like my new colors, it looks refreshing and cool, well it should be because the blog’s name IS icey fresh. eh?
alright, enough of the blahs and stupid words.. my mind’s still blank and not functioning well.. obviously. probably because i’ve read bryanboy’s blog. The blog is stupid for others.. but anyway, it’s his blog and life anyway.. why fuss over another person’s life? DO SOMETHING ABOUT YOUR LIFE. Anyway, i read his post about Pepper Lunch in Rockwell.. i may not be that interested in fashion, but i am about FOOD!. Well, i will be trying it some other time.. steak looks good and yummy. really love eating.. even though it doesn’t show.. haha!
Last night, as usual I can’t sleep so I decided to dream again, and played God. I played with some words, thus the title.. i think i’ll make up a poem for it. Nah.. i can’t make up my mind yet. But if I do come up with one, then i’ll post it here. =)
Yesterday I watched Twelve Monkeys starring Bruce Willis and Brad Pitt. Jeffrey Goines (played by Brad Pitt) was so funny! Brad Pitt was great in acting as a lunatic/ mentally divergent whatever that means! haha =) I’m really interested with Time Travel always. Like for Donnie Darko for example, and Somewhere in Time. When you mess with Time, surely something will go wrong. But anyway, it’s an endless cycle unless you get to solve something.
My sister once shared to me a recurring dream she always have. That she was a vampire slayer! “Monica the Vampire Slayer” what a laugh! Anyway she said that she always had dreams about vampires. Always, always, always about vampires. So she said that maybe in her past life, she was a vampire slayer! Could be true.. I actually believe my name is Heaven in my past life. I know i know. I really know it!!! I was Heaven in my past life because I always dream of it too.
Watched Goal 1&2 too yesterday. It was a very cool movie, very inspiring and entertaining. So I realized that if you’re really good at something, maybe exceptional skills, not just you know how, and you enjoy it and you really want it, then maybe it’s really for you. Like Santiago Munez, he was exceptional, and he really loved football. So so.. maybe writing is not for me because I’m really not good at it, i just know how.. but anyway, it’s still related to my dream so i could still apply it. What is my dream anyway? *puff*
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for it is the day I first started to kill a dream. “First” because I don’t know how many opportunities i’ll let slip by later on but I’d also like to say “and last” so that it would be the last time i’d let an opportunity pass me by. I’m a quitter, although “being” in the dream hasn’t even started yet. I haven’t been given a duty yet! A topic to cover! Not good…
Today, I try to rebuild that dream, something less complicated perhaps? Perhaps I’m not up to the Varsitarian’s expectations, well I think so. I decide for my life. So I decided to quit. Should i give a happy or sad smiley for this???
Let me think of a creative topic to write. For now, i’m actually thinking of writing something about an experience last April 2007 (i’m supposed to write specific details but decided not to because someone may get the idea) or what I did today. Either… i have to do it quick to see results! Gimme one week! =)
i shouldn’t regret about it now because it passed. I promised pa naman to myself and to the Lord that when presented with the opportunities, i’ll grab it. i grabbed it yes, hang on to it for a couple of months, when i was sure i was not going to fall that was when i decided to let go…
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and another year will be opening new doors for us.
i am closing another chapter in my life and starting a new one. i’ve been full of hopes and dreams over the summer that unfortunately, for the rest of this year, nothing has happened to make them alive, to achieve them, or even, to make me closer to those dreams.
i am quite sad by what this current year has brought me. i am quite sad by how college turned out to be. and i want to leave all the people i’ve known since college started.
because they do not know the real me. and whenever i’m with them, i’m not acting like the real me. is this just another phase?
i’ve been distracted by the present. I worried over the smallest things. i acted like a child again without any real direction in life.
and since college started, i loss sight of my dreams. and now, i don’t even know which path to take. or if ever there’s still a path to take.
and so for this coming year, 2008. all i wish is that i get to do the things i used to enjoy, to be someone with dreams again. for dreams will always be a part of my being, forever and ever.
